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That's the end of blogging! I don't find joy in blogging anymore as much as i don't find joy in going out with you anymore...
As i stand in front of the gates of the Facebook era, i know my life's in a mess... People may envy me for what i have, people may think i'm doing so well... But deep in my heart i know its not... Its white on the outside but black & burnt on the inside... The screws are all loose inside of me, the foundation is collapsing soon...
I don't find joy anymore in blogging, i don't find joy anymore when i go out with my friends, even my loved ones... I don't know what i really want... Maybe its solitude i'm looking for...
Maybe when i'm alright, i'll blog again! But LiveJournal is dead...
Damn if i will, damn if i don't... Who really cares if i'm sick, who really knows if i'm sick this morning... None! Who's there to take the extra mile to find out that i'm ok? No one, except you & i really thank God for you accompanying me to the doctor this afternoon... But NO ONE ELSE! It doesn't take a Benny Hinn to discern how am i feeling right now... Any ordinary soul with a heart of compassion can know how it feels...
I know the reason but it sounds so sick, so digusting, so impossible... Take me out of this place of solitude!
The power lines went out
and i am all alone
i don't really care at all not answering my phone
all the games you played
the promises you made
couldn't finish what you started only darkness still remains
Lost sight
couldn't see
when it was you and me
blow the candles out looks like a solo tonight
but i think ill be alright
Been black and blue before
there's no need to explain
i am not the jaded kind playbacks such a waist
your invisible, invincible to me
my wish is coming true erase the memory of your face
Lost sight couldn't see
when it was you and me
blow the candles out
looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
blow the candles out
looks like a solo tonight but i think ill be alright
one day you will wake up
with nothing but your sorries
ans someday you will get back
everything you gave me
blow the candles out
looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
blow the candles out
looks like a solo tonight
but i think I'll be alright
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Candles - Hey Monday</div>
This song's for all the nice people in school... As we are all ending our exams this week, some today, some tomorrow, some at 8pm on Friday! Haha, it doesn't matter... Time doesn't stop, our tertiary/pre-university phase of life ends here this week! Some might consider working, some might consider studying & 50% will be married to his country (Army!!!)... Some i'll be seeing for the last time (Hopefully! Wha hahaha)
So this song's for you... Though its a love song, just change the word love to friendship! How i wish time can be turn back, then i'd studying really very hard for every paper! But along the way, i've met really great friends who helped me alot! Industrial Training Attachment, FYP & playing hide & seek in school is some of the nice memories! Gusto Cheerleading too, Year 2 & 3 was the most happening time in my poly life... Anyway, this is the song that S Club sang when they disbanded! Lol, its been a long time i last hear it & hey i thought it suits the ocassion!
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Say Goodbye - S Club 7
Say Goodbye- S Club
In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regret
Nothing lasts forever though you want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you
Sometimes goodbye
though it hurts in your heart
is the only way for destiny
sometimes goodbye
though it hurts is the only way now
for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
cause true love never dies
In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things
Well wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe well see eachother,
standing on the same street corner,
no regrets
Each and every end is always
written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last
And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel
Ahhh, so this is Poly life! My advicce to all sec 4/5 students is to go Junior College & never step into a poly unless you are so super fantabulastic disciplined!
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- Mood:
content
Haha! my blog is like urgh!
Didn't went to Minds Cafe today, decided to stay at home good boy... Or rather, its not a decision, its only the way out... If i go Minds, i die tomorrow... As i thought i was so prepared for my paper, actually there's another part i havent studied! Lol... So going stay at home to study for tomorrow final exam is the right thing to do...
After Wednesday or rather Tuesday, i can have all the fun! You know, fellowships, shots-ting, Wii-ing, guitar-ing... Whatever crap! Lol...
Until now i'm kinda prepared for tomorrow paper already... i change my method of studying... I did not memorise, but i understand & hopefully, i can apply it tomorrow! Haha...
Last week was rather bad too... Cheerleading all the way & clearing my Fish & Co. treat was the only positives! Was so packed with my schedule that i had to last minute skip birthday parties (2 in fact) & also time really flies last week...
Well, i don't care, i'm gonna watch football today at 11pm to destress! Liverpool Vs Man City... Lol, if Liverpool drop points today, that's it... Man United is walking all alone at the top! Well, seldom or never talk soccer on my blog before! Haha!
Haha, yesterday i received a sms about the bomb hoax in Bugis too... When i first opened it up, crap i obviously know its a hoax! Maybe my discerning? Haha, i don't know... But i know there are more lame people than me in this world!
"Strengthen me with raisins, refresh me with apples, for I am faint with love." -S.O.S 2:5
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- Mood: calm
Only Hope - Mandy Moore</div>
There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.
So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.
Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.
I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.
So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.
Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.
I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.
Long time since i blogged huh? Kinda tired these days... Haha, don't felt like blogging... So happy, all my In-Course Assement modules test are over, now there's only 2 exams paper coming up... Life's pretty good... I got the next one whole week to study... I will miss school... Really wanna thank many of my teacher for their leniency... I think almost all of my modules are below 75% are definitely i thought i'll be given a pass or fail grade! HAHAHA! I hate to say this but i think i'm covered by His unconditional grace...
Yup, that is all... =)
First i was so passionate about Cheerleading! But then the devil came & hey, i think i've had enough of that...
Now, i experience the same feeling from the same devil this whole week... It told me to give up guitar... its too difficult for me...
No? I can't... & i recalled how hard i learnt the chords & strummings... The tears i've shed, the blood on my fingers... It kept me moving on... I will not submit to the point of giving up... No, though i'm tired of what i'm doing right now, i must continue to strive for better days to come...
& now i proclaim out loud, to bind the devil & live out my goal for the year... CGG by JUNE! CGG BY JUNE CGG BY JUNE! By all means, by all sacrifice, this is the ultimatum i've given to myself...
*in case some people thought i am already a CGG, NO, i havent! I'm not that pro yet! So here it goes! God bless all...
-Ed Angels =)
Now, i experience the same feeling from the same devil this whole week... It told me to give up guitar... its too difficult for me...
No? I can't... & i recalled how hard i learnt the chords & strummings... The tears i've shed, the blood on my fingers... It kept me moving on... I will not submit to the point of giving up... No, though i'm tired of what i'm doing right now, i must continue to strive for better days to come...
& now i proclaim out loud, to bind the devil & live out my goal for the year... CGG by JUNE! CGG BY JUNE CGG BY JUNE! By all means, by all sacrifice, this is the ultimatum i've given to myself...
*in case some people thought i am already a CGG, NO, i havent! I'm not that pro yet! So here it goes! God bless all...
-Ed Angels =)
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- Mood:
crappy
I don't believe in simplicity... Being simple is just consoling yourself after you been through a crisis... Come think of it, who wants to be simple until you've been burnt by fire (i don't mean literally being burnt)...
My bottomline is, to me, simplicity cannot buy me happiness... I always strive to be the most flamboyant, the most outstanding if i want to be the best... Well, haha why am i talking about this...
For the past few days, i have lots of dreams, weird dreams, dreams of my friends & people around me, different night has different dreams... I can't say its a sweet dream or a nightmare, its just a random dream... I can't confirm whether how true it is... It could be deja vu in my dreams, i don't know & i don't want to confirm it right now... Just that i had this weird atmosphere around me these days...
I believe something big is gonna happen... Its gonna affect many people emotionally... There will be a change coming up soon... I don't know what change too, but this weird feeling & atmosphere tells me so... All i know is that this change will be good but it doesn't seem good when you first see it... I'm trying to fix the puzzle in my dream... I have this weird weird dreams... Just like i dreamt of something & this SMS which is what i dreamt was sent to me this morning... Also, i dreamt that someone died, but i don't know who, all i know is i felt sad... Then in class today, my lecturer told all of us that one guy from my other class pass away... Though i don't know him personally, it really happen in my dream, just that i don't know who died...
I don't know, but i'm kinda scared... I'm not prophecy-ing or do i wanna be a prophet, but this whole episode is way too scary... It really freak me out... I really hope its coincidence & not deja vu... All i know is that a change, a very prominent change is coming soon... I don't know exactly what change it will be but all i know is it will affect me & some of my good friends... I really don't know... & i really don't feel like typing this...
Sorry if i have freak anyone out when you read this... & please, i'm not emotional, i just felt weird...
But i'm glad my FYP presentation is over, now's just the report due... All thanks to a great lecturer & my always supportive team mates... I'm weird, i'm beginning to miss school & at the last week, i regretted skipping schools...
Looking forward to Wednesday after school... Gonna go chill with my friend... Most probably gonna go Carnivore & movie... I wanna watch InkHeart!
& i've decided to go on a one week vegetable fast soon... I don't know, i'm just weird these few days...
ed angels
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- Mood:
weird
These are the 5 really hilarious love proposals / pick up lines, its randomly disastrous:
1) The 35 years old guy tells his girlfriend, "Will You Marry Me? I Love You Just Like How Much I Love My Mother!"
2) "You must be the reason for global warming because you’re HOT!"
3) "Is your name Gillette? Because you’re the best a man can get!"
4) "You must be a magician, because everytime I look at you, everyone else disappears."
5) "Hello, my name is Elmo and baby you can tickle me anytime you want!"
Super Strong God (Acoustic) - Hillsong</div>
Well, just one more week of school & that's it! Next week is all about projects, reports & presentations!
Then there's 2 study week for me before i take my semestral exams... So actually there's nothing much to worry about for the semestral exam... its only 2 modules! Haha, after Wednesday, everything will be over... Lol!
I can't understand why are my classmates so stress about it... Haha, its the last week of school, look at the long-term! Haha, the future's bright for us! They are so stressed about the projects & stuff, well to me, i'm so excited that the week will end soon...
Its a kind of feeling where yoou feel excited yet burdened because of the number of projects you have in hand... But the idea of graudating has given me extra motivation! Lol!
Army is next! Wow, that's super fast! It seems like a month's ago i entered poly... I can vividly remember my first day at school...
But honestly, i screwed up my poly life... I became someone that's so worried about my school work to someone that doesn't even care if exam is tomorrow! But nevermind, when i go into University after Poly, it will be an altogether different thing!
Haha, i havent been blogging much for the past week... Mainly because i'm tired & projects! But well, CNY was awesome! Today's only the 5th day of CNY! Wow! I thought it has ended already or what!
I guess i have a super packed week ahead but hopefully, everything will be alright after Wednesday!
Thank You For Loving Me!
ed angels
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- Mood:
thankful
"ed angels": i'm the 'lovable' blonde in that picture. says:
wha
he super high sia when he see u
`= CeLeste =` `Journey and e walk.` says
who sia
"ed angels": i'm the 'lovable' blonde in that picture. says:
can i put these three lines in my blog?
yea, u may
go ahead
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McDonald's is my favourite fast food restaurant...
But looks like Carl's Junior is overtaking my preference...
Garfield is my favourite character...
Big Bird is my favourite Sesame Street character...
I love all tastes, that includes Sweet, Sour, Salty as well as BitterGourd...
I love hugs, i hate kisses...
Long hair over short hair...
I find Asian girls that are taller than me disgusting & scary...
I love teen flicks like Harold & Kumar & Mandarin old-school war time cliffy shows are not my kind of thing...
I'd choose watching the 12 sickening lotus over the red overhyped cliff...
Like i said above, i rather stay at home hacking into people's IP address than watching flicks like Ip Man...
Besides Hummingbird, there's no other acoustic guitar i desire to have...
If Hummingbird stops production, i might as well quit playing guitar...
If Hummingbird didn't exsted, i will be stuck with my sickening classical guitar that's worth not even a dollar in the market today...
I love Japanese songs but i only listen to YUI...
I dislike desperate people...
I might be taking an advanced diploma in music...
Passion does not last forever, until i realise music was my passion, i was just flirting with studying business...
Triangles definitely a no-no for me...
My dream car is a red Chevy...
My dream career is to drive a F1 car, in the same team with Fernando Alonso...
If i have the power to shut down something in this world, it would definitely be Team McLaren in F1...
That is the reason why i prefer Jack Daniel's to Johnny Walker...
Obviously everyone knows if you drink, don't drive, need not you to come & remind me...
Las Vegas is the place i always wanted to live in, for it takes me out of the reality, into the wonderland...
Wonderland refers to its themed hotels & not its casino (Grow up please!)
I've decided that's the place for my honeymoon in 7 years time & thiz is where we gonna stay. :)
I'd always very much dreamt of myself & thousands of people trapped in a catastrophic situation...
& with me being the hero, saving everyone alive in that catastrophy...
In the film Batman, i root for Joker cuz at least his voice ain't that gay...
Out of Batman, Superman, Spiderman & Powepuff Girls
My favourite is J.C. Man! J for what? C for what?
7 Princesses? Nah, i don't fancy anyone of them...
This one is my fave!
& lastly, i love ah lians! sorry, i can't help it...
ed angels
